The Path Through the Body: My Journey to Wild Queen

Every guide's journey begins with their own quest for healing. Mine began with pain — a persistent tension in my lower back and hip that had me clenching my teeth around corners and struggling to sit at work. What started as physical discomfort became my unexpected gateway to awakening.

When the Body Speaks, Eventually We Listen
For years, I managed the symptoms. Ashtanga yoga became my daily medicine — 90 minutes each morning kept the pain at bay. But eventually, I'd had enough. I decided this was the year I'd resolve the root cause once and for all.

I tried everything conventional medicine offered:

• Osteopathy

• Weekly Rolfing bodywork

• MRIs revealing nothing physically wrong

• Physiotherapy that didn't help

• Even medications that sent me spiralling into emotional breakdown
   

My doctor, finally at a loss, suggested something that would change everything: "Perhaps somatic meditation will help you manage the pain."

Divine Synchronicity
I'm extraordinarily determined. Once I set my mind to something, I become fixated. I began exploring meditation at home, but soon found synchronicities leading me rather than my own mind. 

The turning point came when a friend gave me a book for my birthday — "Touching Enlightenment: Finding Realization in the Body" by Reginald Ray. As I read, every cell in my body responded with recognition. This wasn't just information; it was a homecoming.

The message resonated deeply: the body isn't an obstacle to spiritual awakening — it's the gateway. Everything we need is here in our Soma, our body. The body isn't something to transcend; it is the path itself.
I made a promise to myself that I would travel to Colorado to learn from Reginald Ray. No matter what.

The Mountain Calling
A year later, I found myself at 8,000 feet above sea level in Crestone, Colorado — a mystical little town filled with retreat centres. The somatic meditation centre was breathtaking, with floor-to-ceiling windows facing down a valley where we watched storms roll in and sunshine dance with clouds.

It was here that my past sexual trauma surfaced. I remember approaching the microphone on question day, tears streaming down my face, feeling transported back to the moment of the incident. I asked the teacher what I should do.

Her answer was simple: "Keep going. You are doing it just right."

Beyond Healing to Awakening
By the retreat's end, I felt transformed. Blissful. Awakened. I had touched a mystical part of myself I hadn't known existed.

During one meditation, the teacher guided us to drop a cord into the earth, dissolve our bodies, and fly around the planet. And I did. It wasn't visualisation — I was there, experiencing it completely.

Another time, she taught us to breathe through the cells of our skin. For a brief, extraordinary moment, I was no longer breathing through my lungs but through every pore. She shared that Tantric yogis in caves breathe this way for years, appearing dead yet more alive than most of us will get to experience in our lifetime. 

These experiences of magic and potential kept calling me back. I've returned to Crestone three times now, once for a month-long silent meditation retreat.

Trauma as Teacher
The same sexual trauma kept emerging in different forms. Buried body memories surfaced. Yet simultaneously, I kept awakening more to my True Nature, having magical experiences that felt like remembering rather than discovering.

I now understand that our challenges — our conditioning, trauma, daily struggles, moments of doubt, numbness, fear, anxiety — these aren't obstacles to our path. They are the sacred initiations for our most aligned path to unfold.

All of these experiences represent energy trapped in the body. As we transmute this stuck energy, it transforms into power and life energy. We expand. We feel more ourselves than ever before. We remember who we truly are.

Post-Traumatic Growth
A little-known phenomenon called post-traumatic growth explains what happens when we fully heal. We don't just reset to who we were before the trauma — we expand beyond that previous state.

You don't just return to your former self. You become the version of yourself that you've always known exists at your core. It's an expanded you coming into realisation. Some call this enlightenment. And it is.

Every challenge on your path to your dreams is like a magical object in a video game. Each one reveals where your next pill of aliveness is hiding, saying, "Now is the time to awaken more of your magical gifts."

This package may look and feel terrible. You may want to avoid it. But it arrives as a gift for you to alchemise like the Wild and powerful Queen that you are.

The Physical Becomes Mystical
During that month-long silent retreat, I experienced a massive energy awakening, and my hip finally released. For the first time in 15 years, I stood equally on both legs, solid through my right side instead of wobbling.

The healing and expansion wasn't just from meditation. Somatic Experiencing Sessions were an essential part. External choices mattered too — leaving my corporate job that no longer served me was a crucial step. I'm still unwinding, still discovering, still grateful for all the difficult experiences that led me on this path of mystical awakening.

Wild Queen Emerges
Somatics became my spiritual path. Not just a healing modality, but a way to come home to myself completely. A way to turn life's challenges into awakening and sensational play. A path to live a magical, mystical life — not by transcending my human body, but through it.

This is the foundation of Wild Queen. This is why I know in my heart that you will be free of what holds you back. That rather than past trauma pulling you away from your path, it is your path — leading you to remember the wild, sovereign being you truly are.

The body knows. The body remembers. The body is the way home.
When you're ready to walk this path of embodied awakening, Wild Queen awaits.